10th of November, 1983
Dear Diary, My day has been absolutely brilliant. I had an incredible day at school today. And the best part, we had no math! I struggle with it. One more thing I loved about today was that mom took Aparna and me to the bookstore to buy a new book! It's a monthly treat and I enjoy it so much. Aparna, of course, bought a comic book while I bought the next Saint Claire's book by Enid Blyton. I also bought a postcard from a shop nearby and I plan to write to all my friends back in India. Zambia is fun of course, but I miss them so much. Fortunately, I'm able to stay in touch with them by exchanging letters every month. I also miss Caesar but I'm sure he's happy on the labrador farm where he's being taken care of. The other day something happened at school. I got into a fight with some friends and I was so upset. Luckily, I had Aparna to talk to. Yes, we do get on each other's nerves but she's there for me if I need someone to talk to. I'm lucky to have someone to talk to. I simply can't imagine the damage internalising my emotions would do to me. I'm glad I have someone I trust. For dinner today, mom made chicken which was absolutely delicious. That was the PERFECT end to my day. Overall, I do enjoy my life in Zambia. In some ways, I'm happy he was posted here. Anyway, that's all that happened in my life today. I'll write again tomorrow!
10th of November, 2020
I don't even know why I'm writing this. I never even make diary entries! My day was okay I guess. Nothing out of the ordinary. I had online school, as usual. The only good thing about today was that we didn't have math class today. That was great! My friends and I are going to have a Netflix party tonight and it's going to be AMAZING. I can't wait! We're all going to watch 'The Conjuring 3' at midnight. I'm probably going to be the one to scream the most because I can't handle watching horror movies. Yeah, I know, I'm a chicken. I hate living in the lockdown, but my friends are helping me get through it. Thank god for FaceTime. I would have never survived 2020 without it! There's something that's been bothering me though. I've been getting into fights these days. Rumours keep getting spread and I'm falsely accused of various things. I don't know what to do anymore! I can't talk to my parents about it because it's weird and they just wouldn't understand. I don't know who to talk to. I want to tell someone but I can't. It makes me feel alone sometimes. I wish I had a sibling to talk to. It's hard being a teenager in today's world. You struggle to survive. I know it sounds dramatic, but this is me letting out unadulterated emotion. Luckily, I have true friends who stick by me no matter what and I'm truly grateful for them. Explaining my problems over text doesn't work. It's like I'm thrown into this continuous cycle of issues and conflict that refuses to set me free and the worst part is, it's a cycle that nobody knows about. For dinner, we ordered pizza which was the other decent thing that happened to me today. Anyway, I'm now going to destroy this entry so that nobody finds it and knows what's going on. Thanks for listening.
Author: Nandini Patil
Editor: Zoyah Virani