I searched for you
Thinking I’ve caught you
and realize I’ve only lost.
For you’re such a good hider,
And I’m your blind seeker.
I’ve cried for you
I’ve fought for you
Still, why can’t I find you?
They tell me to fight harder
But little do they know
How loud I shout for you in silence.
I faintly remember your warmth and comfort,
Your dangerous but captivating wings.
Such a comfortable trap you are.
They say, hope is the last thing ever lost
That it’s a slow, gradual process
For there’s this hole in my chest
A lost gleam in my eyes.
Did I lose you the day I stopped dreaming? Or are you still lurking somewhere, testing me? Are these the signs?
I’m sorry.
I exploited you with unrealistic expectations and dreams that weren’t even mine
Your shadows still tease me,
Peeking through the corners
But by the time I get there
You are all gone.
Please come back again soon
Time’s bleeding out my hands.
Author: Anubhi Srivastava
Editor: Himanshi Dodiya