They surround me
Inching closer and closer,
Till they have me trapped.
I try to push them away and escape
But they just get harder and push back.
They never stop getting closer
It's getting harder to breathe
I'm starting to get colder
My thoughts invaded by sheer anxiety.
And I try so hard to be perfect,
But I just let everyone down instead.
Nothing excites me anymore
All I see are imperfections
In life and myself
And now I'm in depression.
It consumes my mind in its entirety
It just clouds my vision
And now I can't see.
Every move feels like suicide,
Every breath feels like a waste,
Cutting doesn't solve my problems
It just turns my soul to lead.
I try to take it easy,
But it only makes me guilty
I don't know how much I can take.
I can't go back now
There's far too much at stake.
I try to break away.
But all I do is come back
Whiskey doesn't help
I only drink it to forget.
I don't know who I am,
But I'm still afraid to lose me
After all, I am my only friend
There's no one else to care for me.
I yell and I shout,
But nobody seems to hear me
All they see in me is confidence
But breaking down alone is a prayer; a plea; a cry.
A cry for help that everyone ignores
I can't say I blame them
You can't acknowledge what you don't know
Please just let me go
I'll be forever in your debt.