Dear Soul Sister,
It’s been 4 years since we met. I can’t believe how slowly time has gone by. Though we haven’t seen each other in ages, we're closer than we ever were. So, yay! Maybe long-distance friendships are not that bad (lol I’m making this seem like a relationship) but honestly, I do miss you a lot!
Remember, that serious conversation we had? About your mental health? I still can’t get over it! I hate knowing that there isn’t much I can do to help. I hate knowing I can’t hug you when you’re crying your eyes out thinking of suicide. I hate knowing that you are going through so much alone.
That night when you told me that you didn’t want to live anymore, my heart snapped in two. My stomach sank. Luckily, I was able to calm you down and get you to think rationally and not take a hasty decision. Babe I have never told you this, but I might as well now.
Ever since that day I have been worried sick about you. Wondering if you are okay, wondering if you are going back to the dark place and wondering how I would help you this time. It sucks. It sucks seeing your best friend, your sister in such a scary place.
I can’t help but sometimes wonder if I would see you again. If I would meet you. If we would ever be dorm-mates like we’ve always wanted to be. Please, don’t leave me! Don’t leave your family, don’t leave your boyfriend because without you around all our lives would be miserable.
I love you to infinity and beyond babe!
From the Rachel to your Monica.