“Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Beyond the door
There's peace, I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven”
-Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
The alarm clock starts to ring as I’m jerked back to reality. I get out of bed and take a minute to look at myself in the mirror. It was going to be another normal day. Sighing to myself, I fixed my hair when suddenly the picture on my bedside table caught my attention.
In a plain black frame, I saw a little white ball of fur with brown patches wrapped in my arms. Two tiny black eyes peered at the camera and a tiny pink tongue stuck out as she appeared to be smiling.
I smiled to myself, feeling a little melancholic as the memories flooded back; the good, the bad, the times that she would lay her wet furry face on my lap and paw at my hands, asking for more belly rubs. All those laughs she brought up as she tried to lick the air when we blew at her face. All those times she would bark at dogs bigger than her and then as they barked back, get scared and hide behind our legs.
My drawer still has her old chew toy. My house once filled with the soft, distant sound of her barking now sounded empty. Thoughts of the familiar scent of her soft fur clouded my mind and I remembered the feeling of her rough little tongue against my face. The way she used to jump with joy every time she saw me. How special she made me feel; how special she was to me.
My lap felt empty as I laid my head on it, not hearing her little heart thump in my ears, not being able to bury my face in her fur, not hearing her bark softly as a way of comforting me, how she used to make me feel better no matter what the problem was.
The picture now appeared blurry. She was gone. There was nothing I could do about it. I’d never be able to see her again. A part of my soul was missing. She took that part with her when she left. The part of my soul that brought immense joy was forever gone.
I can’t express how much we all miss you; the day we got a call saying you had left us to prance around in the heavenly clouds, all of our worlds came crumbling down. It felt like we were stabbed in the heart. We were at a sudden loss for words as we realised that we had been robbed of our little ball of everything.
I hope you’re doing good up there,that you have everything you could ever want. We couldn’t be more thankful to you for everything you did. For all the joy you brought in our lives, for all those days you just lay by our sides while we went through the problems of life and other days when you would do the goofiest of things that brought huge smiles to our faces. I hope that we too were able to give you a happy life and I’m so glad you chose our family.
Life hasn’t been the same since the day we parted ways. A little nugget-shaped hole will always exist in our hearts. We miss you a lot darling, we’ll see you again up there, and when we do, we’re going to smother you with kisses and hugs which we missed out on giving you.
Love you tons Nuggu <3
From your weird hooman
Authors: Nandini Patil and Arushi Deshpande
Editor: Himanshi Mehta