I have been meaning to pen down a letter for you ever since I first heard your name and read about you when I was 10 years old. To the world- both ancient and modern, you may be just another bad guy or villain or the evil one or the rotten brother, but to me, you are something and someone starkly different. You are my comfort character and I know how twisted this may seem to so many people out there, but it is the truth.
You have had a troubled past. A troubled childhood, rather. You were abandoned. You were left to fend for yourself whilst you were a mere fledgling. And then along came Odin to save you whilst he battled with the frost giants in your homeland- Jotunheim. You found a home. You found a family.
You found a father who did not often bare his heart to you, but you knew he cared deeply for he had chosen to save you. You found a mother; Freya, who loved you even when you spiraled into the darkest of states of mind. You found a brother; Thor. And well, you had your fair share of sibling rivalries, but you also stood by one another through ‘Get Help’ and Planet Sakaar and Ragnarok.
You found compassion and hope and love, but you never found a sense of belonging no matter how hard you tried. You always felt like a misfit. You stood out from the rest of the beings on Asgard. And you struggled to cope with it. You were unable to accept that you would never be like the others and that they would always know that and you would always know that. And so you lashed out several times and that came off as aggression to some and tantrums to others.
What I am trying to say is that I get you. I truly do, Loki Laufeyson. I do get what you have been through. I get what you may have been going through in recent times. And that is precisely why I love you. For you chose to help the others in Asgard. You chose to help the Avengers. You chose to help Thor. You did not have a flicker of doubt in your mind. You followed your heart and you did the right thing.
So yes, I know you go by several names- Loki Laufesyson, Loki Odinson, The God of Mischief, The War Criminal. I know that you have been called a conniving, craven, pathetic worm, a long-haired creepo, The Asgardian Mussolini, and even Little Blue Baby Icicle. But I think others were too quick to judge you. To me, You shall always be Loki of Asgard- the worthy son, the rightful king of Asgard and Jotunheim.
Loki, it has been almost 8 years since I first found the one character I truly loved. It has been 8 years of me meandering with you as you tried to rule the world whilst finding yourself. It has been 8 years since I have been seeing the good in your heart, the good not many could see.
And thus, I believe that you never did really die in Thanos’ hand. I refuse to believe that because good always prevails. I refuse to believe that because you promised, you promised that the Sun would shine upon you and Thor and the whole of Asgard again. And when you made that promise to them, I believed you. I still do believe you.
It has been 8 years of me knowing that you are a constant in my universe and this will never change. Because Loki Laufeyson, you are the Sun in my world. You are constant despite the fact that you were abandoned. You are compassionate despite the fact that others have not often been that way to you. You are good despite not knowing what goodness truly is. You are generous despite not knowing what generosity truly is. You are loving and I hope you know that you are loved.
Loki, you taught me the meaning of goodness. You taught me the value of righteousness. And so I am not bothered by the opinions that others hold of you. Because for me, Loki Laufeyson you are you and that is the best version of you there can ever be in any multiverse.
The One Who Will Always Believe In You.
Author: V.R. Kapse
Editor: Aastha More